Against own nature

The mind hit the hammer hard. I took a choice. But now, every fiber of me screams. Refuses. Fights.

I've dealt with dissappointment and rejection at multiple occassions. But this..
I'm fighting against all odds and my own nature.

Ration stands alone. And this love,
This love acts selfishly, doesn't care. Its sole purpose is to survive.

I push it back, I push it back down.
For I'll never get it outside. For now I push it back down.

Back in my eye.